During my childhood and much of my adulthood, I struggled with a spirit of fear. This spirit stemmed from deep-seated insecurities based upon many things that occurred in my formative years. Even A.J. -(After Jesus), I struggled with bouts of fear when things I didn’t understand occurred. I can remember so many times when I prayed, I would pray this verse:
What time I am afraid, I will trust in thee.. Psalm 56:3 (TPT)
There have been so many times in my life when I could not even conceive what was happening in my life, and my natural reaction would be to feel as if everything was going south, with no help in sight.
The good news is that God did not cast me aside for failing to trust Him. He did not reprimand me and lash at me with the truth that He had already done so much for me, that I should never doubt Him. Yet, doubt Him I did. Even to the point of feeling as if all hope was lost.
The other week I had a very pessimistic thought. It brought me into such a place of despair. All of a sudden, out of my belly, I felt the Spirit of the Lord give me a revolutionary idea – it said something like this:
“You can pray, it doesn’t have to be the end!”
Imagine that, the intercessor I call myself having to get a revelation that “I could pray”.
Beloved, there are times when things hit us so hard that it takes the breath out of us. We’re not prepared to deal with it and as a result we wither in faith. At these times – when fear tries to grab hold of us, we can remind ourselves that there is a God in heaven who lives and moves and answers prayer. There is a God you can turn to with your fears, and He will in no wise cast you out. He will not ridicule you, nor will He reprove you. He will open His arms wide and embrace you into His unfailing love and offer you gentle words of encouragement.
Better than even that, if you let Him, He will go to work in your behalf and once again give you Words of Life and a TESTimony for your test.
Be encouraged. I hear another song rising in my heart:
Is there anybody out there just like me?
(Anybody out there?)
Anybody needing fear to leave? (Ooo yeah)
If you don’t know how to say it
Sing along with me
Sing fear, you don’t own me
There ain’t no room in this story
And I ain’t got time for you
Telling me what I’m not
Like you know me, well guess what?
I know who I am
I know I’m strong, brave
And I am free
Got my own identity
So fear, you will never be welcome here
Woah, goodbye, goodbye fear, woah
You will never be welcome here.
The Break-Up Song Francesca Battistelli